Happy Sunday! Let’s talk about my title: Just Start, Anytime.

I was journaling and realized that what I was writing about might intrigue some of you.

Here’s a quick excerpt from my journal:

Arabella is currently napping. I took her to the park today. She’s getting so big. I love her so much. I love being her mom. She’s the best baby girl I know. The woman I am growing into and learning to be—because of her—amazes me. I didn’t know I was capable of so much until I met her. I’m happy that I’m proving myself to, well, me, but I wish I could have grown like this sooner. I still have a lot of work to do on myself, but things are looking good. I feel so blessed, healthy, lucky, and happy.

I wanted to share this because, as I was rereading my journal, I realized I still have the habit of wishing for things I cannot change. “I wish I could have grown like this sooner.”

Everyone: Whatever journey you’re on—whether it’s soul-searching, job hunting, health, parenting, or pursuing a passion—you will get there in your own time.

Embrace Growth

You really can start at any time. It doesn’t have to be on a Monday, at the start of a month, or at the beginning of a new year. And even when you do get there, it’s okay to crave more—to want more for yourself or your family.

I’ve been on a health kick, but I ate terribly for two days. At the end of the second day, I asked myself if it was still worth exercising after eating everything in sight. The answer was yes. I can’t stop myself from doing good just because I did something “bad.”

The point of sharing this is to remind you that it’s okay to have mixed days, and it’s okay to start in the middle of chaos or after decisions you regret.

Lately, my body has felt so strong, and I don’t want to let that feeling go—ever again. When I found out I was pregnant, I told myself that I wanted to keep up with all my children. I didn’t want to lack the energy to get up a million times a day. So that’s what I’m doing—taking care of myself and chasing my daughter around. I don’t feel sluggish; I feel great.

What Work I Need To Start

Now, to reference the above: I still have a lot of work to do on myself. I’ll share what that is—my dark thoughts, my tendency to focus on the negative rather than the positive, and my obsession with caring way too much about what people think of me.

A few blog posts ago, I told you I would share the moments when my therapist absolutely left me floored, and I promise I will soon. Her insight needs to be shared.

On that note, I know it’s hard to just start—to just change. And at times, it feels impossible. So don’t be too hard on yourself, like I often am.

I hope you all have a beautiful week!

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